I am unlovable and deserve loneliness.
A thought that I will never accept is that,
I am alright, and I will find love.
When push comes to shove,
I am incomplete and full of flaws.
I used to believe a delusional lie that,
Anyone can find love if they try.
If life has taught me something, it’s that,
Only some are blessed to be happy.
And you can say a lot to convince me that,
I have what it takes to find love.
I have realised after many struggles that,
I am cursed, and I don’t deserve happiness.
No matter what happens I can’t accept that,
There is a lot of goodness within me.
Whenever I search my feelings, I wonder,
Am I destined to a long cold life?

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